Neglect
By Bay, 6th Grade
I’ve been neglected
For a long time now
Not physically
But mentally
But not on purpose, either
I’ve followed in your shadow
Trying hard to make you see
That I wanted to be friends
But I guess you didn’t care
Didn’t notice me at all
Playing your own little so-called games
And dancing to your own imaginary music
That sounds through your head
As you tune me out
All I wanted was for you to say
That I was your friend
I wanted it more than anything
But apparently I was only a nobody
One of those people that is ignored
Not significant
Dust
But when you finally notice me
You hate me
Detest me
It’s as if you want me dead
And for a while, I hated you, too
I was mad that you didn’t see the real me
The one that only wanted to be friends
And be kind
But then, I realized,
It wasn’t all bad
I just had to show you the good times we could have had
If you would only listen for one little bit
You could learn a lot
And I was happy
Because finally you realized that I was your friend
I was right in front of you
Yet you didn’t notice
Until now
This made me glad
And I wanted us to stay like that
You and me
Friends
And then we were best friends
Inseparable
It was as though there was an imaginary thread
That kept us side by side
But then, you broke it
You cut it up
And you said to me
That you hated me once more
And my heart shattered
Why
Why I asked
You said nothing and just walked away
Leaving me to wallow in my own depression
I didn’t understand it
We had so much
Then nothing
As you stood by
And watched me fall
A single tear rolled down my cheek
I knew we could never return
Never come back and say all was well
Because it wasn’t
And it never would be again
As I watched you leave
With that horrible grin on your face
You had won
And I knew it
And I hated it
Hated you
Hated everything about you
And then I realized
You never really cared
You never actually were my friend
You never wanted anyone to be around you
Always wishing to be alone
As I close my eyes
I feel a surge of hatred towards you
I want you to leave
And when my mind freezes over
And my heart’s turned to ice
I return and ignore you
Like you ignored me
How does it feel
To be neglected?